Esh talani

Sometimes thinking deeply inside, you become afraid of yourself, of what you really are, of smth nobody really knows it is (and moreover that it grows). Considering such a mindworks a sickening reflections become creeping, devouring obvious things and any other ideas, thus leading to some sort of chaotic mental distress-all-in-one: fury, apathy, uncertainity, rush about, thrill, clash of notions, etc incompatible.
...Finally you find neither smb nor even you can understand the real purpose of such thinking.

ps.mirth wanted.